This is my frustration
This is my distraction
It’s my dark shadow
& happening all over again
It’s never ending; nasty game
Adding fuel to my pain
This is me hiding
& this is me acting
This is my burning summer
Stopped looking any further
Flooded with tears and anger
Can’t see any future
This is my disappointment
This is my embarrassment
It’s me on the edge
& it’s me drowning
Just when I wish
Not to feel like this
Trying to forget all that I miss
End up doing something foolish
This is my disconcert
This is my discomfort
And I die
And I cry
This is not what I wanted
This is not what I wished
So easy to say
Not so easy, to throw away
This is me failing everyday
This is me with grudges and dismay
This is my suffering
& this is me pretending
